I've been getting in these moments where i either get so numb, or so overwhelmed, that it feels like a numb on the surface with a chaotic inner.
I've been trying to write more songs since now I'm getting out my comfort zone and performing, but at times it feels hard to think of words, sounds and melodies that I like, or knowing where to begin.
I've always wanted the music i wrote to be a good and refreshing kind of different from what the majority does, but from about a week ago, a couple days before my first show, I feel like I've been thinking to much about conformity. What good is the music if nobody's gonna vibe with it? It's not that nobody will, I've heard for years that I'm talented at what I do but I know I don't make it for everybody.
I have another show today, this ones in my city. I feel sort of low, but I do feel confident about it, especially if I can put myself in the place of owning what I do and not worrying so much about how it differs to most music or how a lot of other people are doing it. I think I need that boldness to deliver the type of energy needed to put on a good show.
If you're in a similar space or have been here, and have some insight or are dealing with something similar don't hesitate to comment or DM me.
Id myself like some clarity or guidance on the situation.
Rah D, I thought you didn’t fuq with the cards... Well now I do and it’s been another one of those things I’ve been resisting and running from but we are getting to know each other and becoming comfy in it. The last 2 weeks I have been going live on here and the messages have been loud and clear. My spreads are my own made up ones and my delivery is far from traditional or even calm. I’m just as gassed as you to receive the messages and as I’m still learning Tarot, I take notes and try to regurgitate them back to y’all. I go off on rants and tell funny stories but honestly I’m having a ball. Last week I read for the Divine Masculine and Feminine collective as one energy within us all because I want to continue to encourage us all to find that balance within 1st. Twin Flames who are seeking union this balance is necessary but in my experience it’s excelled me beyond the experience into new calmer waters and I have no desire to return to that experience. I’ve always advocated that one can choose and I have chosen me over the Twin Flame story and since I have, life has been so damn beautiful. So come join me on Sunday Evenings Live to get the latest Energy update. I’m an Amateur but we all gotta start somewhere, right? #tarot#readings#witchesofinstagram#learntogether#energyreading#divinemasculine#divinefeminine#balance#asabovesobelow#synchronicity#weareboth#dothework#ascension#unconventional#unorthodox#newschool#bitofoldandnew#inmission#proudxhosawoman#cockneyrebel#pottymouth#withlove
New painting (14x18, acrylic) 💀 Lately I’ve been pretty into experimenting with more minimalist designs opposed to suppperrr intricate stuff like I normally do. I did the background pattern with a felt tipped pen, organic shapes are hella satisfying to draw haha. Also- these pics are in direct light and not, the horns are this reflective blue silver paint when in the right lighting 💎 As per usual, DM if interested in purchase :)