Manga: Takane to Hana
Went to school late, just in time for period 4. I only had my psychology copy book, my reading book, a pen, pencil, ruler, rubber, bottle of water and a banana.
And i just loved it. Not bringing a bag. Cause in my entire school life every day i attended school i brought a bag. And i feel like this year I've experienced things I've never done before. Namely not bringing a bag, going braless to school, or underwearless.
And i just kind of love it.
My psychology teacher actually asked me to stay during lunch, to talk to her EE students cause she's having trouble with them - there's a submission coming up. To give them tips and advice. I'm surprised. A year ago, that was us. I felt stuck with my EE. Tired. Working till late.
Today am done with it. In a few months I'll be done with school. Unbelievable.
Bus and i played cards till the bell rang.
Went to French. we were at 3; Childhood, Act and my ex from primary (i don't count it, just haven't found a nickname). We did our things. Chatted. And it was great. Talking, conversing with them. With ease. About how we call our dads😂
And at some point i filmed them; Childhood staring at the camera, Primary (ha found it) giving a small smile and Act bursting laughing though i can't remember why.
And i just love it. The video.
Even though they are not people i am extremely close to it just is a great memory, a great way of remembering school, my last year of school.
Saw Muf. I was so happy, hadn't seen her in a long time.
At some point i felt happy from rewatching the video and just felt like sharing it, or having Curls share it with me. But he's response was "Am good😂" and it kind of just made me feel really down.
I felt restless and messaged Sling. I soon regretted cause i messed it up there too.
I felt restless. Had an urge to cut off my hair but i have split ends and all my efforts would go to waste. Changing to safety pin as earring was no option; have to wait to see it doesn't rust.
After a while said something pg16 to him and then i was okay.
I kind of hate Almond. For giving me hope.
I haven't been revising at all lately. Just reading.
I forgot how good it felt. To read.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗄 𝗆𝗂𝖽𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗍𝖾𝗋 ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀'𝑎 𝑓𝑢𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑦𝑠𝑖𝑠'⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗒: john's corpse is layed in the normal position for a dead body to be positioned in. his eyes closed as if he were in an eternal slumber; his punctured body well concealed with a suit that would regularly be seen adorning his frame. based solely off of his exterior previously, either a member of the shelby family or the coroner shaved off john's extremely little facial hair - perhaps to make him seem more presentable to the god that so many believed in... but not john. yet his voice on religion had been stripped away from him alongside his life. ⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗀𝗈𝗇: the cremation of both john and the wagon are both from a long line of gypsy tradition. the romanichal funeral rite during the 'wagon time' of the 19th and 20th century included burning the wagon and belongings after the owner's death. The custom ensured that nothing whatsoever could be/ would have been sold, though some of John's possessions [such as jewelry, china or money] would be left to the family. The rest, including the wagon, is destroyed. as well as this being true to a lot of tradition; it may also explain why there were so many intricate details in the wagon and why esme so hastily took the rings off of his fingers while they were in the morgue. ⠀⠀