Stairs = No days off.
Stairs = Brain never stops.
Stairs = Being the Owner but recognizing you, yourself work for each Client.
Stairs = Having the power to do what you want but practicing will power to do only what you absolutely need.
Stairs = Going without to make sure your staff has.
Stairs = Crying quite a few nights before bed like you’re the baby you’re growing.
Stairs = Signing checks on #payday for everyone but yourself.
Stairs = Planning a romantic night only to fall asleep on each other.
Stairs = Feeling left out at times in your own space.
Stairs = #working#almost#two#full#years#without#a#check#when#you#have#the#power#to#write#one
Do you still want it?
AMEN if you agree 🙌
God wants us to pray constantly! There is power in prayer 💪 It’s one of the ways we fight in the spiritual battle! Prayer changes us, it changes things, and it connects us to our Heavenly Father.
Say AMEN if you agree 🙏
Nothing can separate us from God's love ❤️
Verse: "For I am persuaded that not even death or life, angels or rulers, things present or things to come, hostile powers, height or depth, or any other created thing will have the power to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!" –Romans 8:38-39
He reached down and #rescued me ❤️ we may at the time never grasp the “WHYs” but I know our worst day without #Jesus is always better than our best day without Him. #pain is not the end but temporary in this world and with #faith and the #Love that saved us from eternal darkness stands between us and evil more than we are aware ❤️😓 May we always fall into the #arms that carry us on our worst days and #celebrate with us on our best. #praying for the hopeless to be #hopeful 🦋 and the #weak become strong in the saving name of #JesusChrist our Lord
It was a special day for our new scooter yesterday! In Bali, if someone buys a new vehicle, there is a ceremony to be done. In fact, they bless the vehicle to protect it from accidents and all kinds of bad things in the future.
So yesterday afternoon we took Scoopy to the scooter-wash to be clean and pretty for the celebration. Then we went with it to the house of one of Agus' relatives, where the mother of Agus's brother-in-law lives. This lady is very knowledgeable about Balinese rituals and how to perform them, so she did "the blessing." She decorated Scoopy with the necessary elements, sprinkled holy water on it, placed incense on it, and muttered the proper mantra. Finally, she laid a low basket on the floor, containing fruits, sweets, various leaf-made ornaments, and flower petals. Agus had to push the scooter through this heap three times back and forth, and we were done. Now we are completely safe on the road 🙂
Ultrasound went well. I had to fill out paperwork and a question asked if it was twins, which made me sad. I went into the waiting room with tears in my eyes while I waited for Hubby. I did a lot of praying for a healthy check up and baby, for this experience to go better. As the tech was doing the ultrasound, she said I see two arms. With her accent I heard “I see two hearts”. With a shaky voice I asked what? She repeated arms- for a second I had a glimmer of hope that Baby B was still in there and they had made a mistake last time. I wasn’t that lucky. I held my tears, and focused on her scans. The baby looked cute in there, heartbeat was good. Its little belly was adorable, and it was moving around a ton! It was neat to see, saw 4 heart chambers, diaphragm, a bunch more. It felt better this time. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
When they went over the results everything came back low risk, only thing is they didn’t see the nasal bone. The doctor said that can be linked with chromosomal abnormalities but since everything else came back negative not to worry. I asked what if it doesn’t come in and she said it wouldn’t matter, but how wouldn’t it matter? It’s a nose! I feel like often my questions aren’t answered. I wish she didn’t even mention the nasal bone; I’m worried that’s all I’ll think about. We have the blood test this week for the genetic testing. That will go further in depth into everything and hopefully they can eliminate any worries about the nasal bone. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I left today definitely happier than the other times (obviously). I do wonder if the baby is happy or not? Hubby said it gets everything from me, so as long as I am. Tomorrow I meet with the grief doula; I am motivated to get back to my happy and excited self again especially with pregnancy. Briefly in the room today I forgot about loss, focused on the beautiful baby in there moving around and how amazing it is to be on this journey. Who knows, maybe there is hope that a better tomorrow is here today?⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀