⛽️ Running on empty | this week has been HARD.
I’ve been (and still am, I think) fighting off—what I’m hoping is just—a head cold, and not the flu (I have had a flu shot though, however, I know it doesn’t protect you against all strains). 🤧
Sebastian’s been unwell, too. We have been using Luna’s humidifier in his room though; which I think has helped somewhat. The GP basically said the usual—saline spray (and snot sucker thing), have his mattress partially upright and the humidifier.
Which we were already doing. He’s been going to sleep at about 7pm-ISH. Followed by waking at around 3am. As I mentioned in my stories yesterday; the wake times being 2-2.5hrs now, by the time he’s asleep—it’s creeping on 5:30am... and there’s not a chance I’ll be able to go back to sleep, soooo....
That’s been the last few nights. Despite going to bed at 9pm.... I am downright EXHAUSTED. 😴
Combined with Luna being a five year old that is getting in touch with her feelings (lots of stamping of feet, yelling, talking back, etc—the fun stuff)—it has been a rough week.
.....not to mention that Thomas is away for a few days next week, YAY.
It honestly feels like I’m running on empty. The fuel light turned on a while ago, and I’m still going.
I’m going to get my nails done tonight, and I’ve got my sister in law’s bridal shower tomorrow.
I’m hoping those couple of activities will at least give me SOME fuel to last the next week or so.
....oh, and he’s away again the following week, too.
On my list as well is to get to the gym. Hopefully!
I was going to end this with some POSITIVITY, but, honestly... I’ve got nothin’... 🤷🏻♀️
➡️ How has your week been? What have you got planned for the weekend?
طفل ال ٣ سنين يقدر 😉
١. يعرف الالوان الاساسية من بعضها 🙂
٢. يعد لحد ١٠ 👍
٣. يعرف الفرق بين ، طويل قصير ، تخين رفيع ، كبير صغير و هكذا ✌
٤. يميز الفرق بين الليل و النهار 🌞
٥. يركب بازل من ٥ ل ١٥ قطعة 🤔
So it seems I may have jinxed myself in my confidence that baby 2 would be as easy as baby 1 😂🙈. I failed to consider that A) all babies are different and B) I’m a whole decade older this time around 🙄. We’re almost a whole year into his wee life and he still has not discovered the joy that is sleep 😭. All nighters certainly were easier when I was 20 😳. I have struggled a bit this time around; my support system is extremely small and we are restricted by breastfeeding - he knows what he likes and it sure as shit ain’t formula 🤷🏻♀️ - so it’s difficult to get any kind of break. It worries me that he seems more attached to my boob than he is to me 🤱🏻 a hug is never enough always has to be milk. My anxiety has heightened and my mood has been generally rubbish 😩. I’ve been lurking here all along, wondering how to use Insta for support but being hindered by anxiety to post 🙋🏻♀️. Today I’ve given myself a kick up the arse and I was up, done a workout, had a shower and got dressed before doing the school stuff and while it’s such a basic manner of functioning there have been lots of days I haven’t made it out of my PJs 🙈. So here’s to getting fit again, muddling my way through mothering 2 and bringing on a more positive mindset 🤞. #mumlife#mentalhealthmatters#postpartummentalhealth#breastfeeding#breastfeedingmama#toddlermum#mumblog#tweenmum#mumof2#mumofboys#mumoftwo#itsokaynottobeokay#mumssupportingmums#mentalhealthawareness#anxiety#familylife#homelife#instareality#reallife
Who’s got their back to school roller blends ready?? 🙋🏼♀️ Here’s a couple killer blends to protect your littles from all the yuck they’re going to be exposed to. Stash your roller in the car or near the door for easy access. Having a routine is where it’s at with essential oils! So keep it up everyday to stay well and minimize any sniffles that take hold. 💜
These festive rollers are so lovely and you can get your own at @oil.life. If you like these blends or found this post helpful, like and comment below! 🍁🍂🍁
I'm pretty sure I write the same caption every year, the night before every birthday.. but boys am I one emotional mama tonight 🙈 .
Bella on the other hand is SO excited for her birthday tomorrow, she asked me as I was putting her to bed if I would save some of the wrapping paper that comes of her presents and put it in a wee glass thing (frame) 😂😂 No idea where she gets this level of sentimentalism/hoarding 🙈😏 .
Is it just me or is 4 kind of a big deal? Like no longer a baby, no longer a toddler 😭 but always the precious little girl who made me a mama 💕 Even bought myself flowers today to celebrate my mamaversary 😂 Anyone else think that should be a thing!? #survivingmykidssince2015#birthdayeve#emotionalwreck#mynumberonegirl#biggestbaby#minibestie#beautifulbella
Couldn’t be more true. ✨
K N O C K H A T C H 💜
We had such a lovely day at @knockhatch today. The boys loved all the animals, all the rides and soft play too💜
It was so nice to spend some time with my mum and the boys today and the boys loved spending the day with their Nanny.
The boys loved the new dinosaur area but they were a little too small to go on all the big slides🤦♀️ I highly recommend going as there is so much to do there for big & small kids and it's a fantastic day out😊
Our little book worm 🐛
What are your kiddies most favourite books?! Ones they just can’t put down or keep choosing over and over!
We’re due for a bookshelf haul, and with his birthday coming up, I think it’s the perfect time to do it 🙋🏻♀️🥰🤓📚 #turning3 😭😂
So I had no idea it was #rainbowbabyday 🌈
We are lucky enough to have two rainbows..........I was very unfortunate when trying for my babies & experienced two miscarriages before Teddy both around the 8/9 week mark........I thought I’d never have to go through that again but how wrong was I.
Before Penelope I suffered a loss which resulted in me needing a D&C as my body just didn’t want to do what it should.........we then suffered yet another loss the month before Christmas.
By this point I thought right that’s it but I wanted that second baby so badly. We fell pregnant very quickly after the last loss & boom 💥 Penelope was conceived........however we found out Penelope would of had a twin but at 6/7 weeks one sac stopped growing 💔 never experienced so much heartache.........anyway I treasured that pregnancy, scans every couple of weeks to make sure she was ok, I booked a few private ones too........I wanted to do all I could to keep her safe 👌🏼 My point of this is never give up hope, miscarriage should NOT be a taboo, you should talk about it to heal your heart & hear others experiences!
All my love to those who’ve experienced that same heartache, you’re all warriors 👊🏼😘🌈❤️
Una foto del mattino postata la sera. •È il riassunto delle mie giornate. Come penso lo sia, di tante altre donne alle prese con i propri piccoli. Decidi di fare qualcosa che non riguardi la tua piccola e durante tutta la giornata non riesci a farla. Ce la fai, forse, se ci metti impegno, a notte inoltrata, prima che il sonno rubi le ultime energie e ti costringa a spalmarti sul letto. Certuni la fanno facile, osservano dall’alto e non comprendono tanta dedizione. Dedizione si, che non è annientamento, non è dimenticarsi di sé. Anzi, è recupero consapevole di ogni facoltà che si possiede, è scoperta di nuove, illuminanti intuizioni. È tempo prezioso che si regala amorevolmente ai figli. Il tempo per sé si trova, basta rieducarsi e ambientarsi in questo nuovo equilibrio. Soprattutto per chi come me, tiene a ricordarsi di essere anche una donna. Basta volerlo e educare i piccoli a questo. Se riusciamo ad avere del tempo per noi stesse, sarà sicuramente di migliore qualità il tempo che daremo ai nostri figli. Piano, piano lo sto imparando anche io, ché in questa scuola ci ho messo piede da poco e se alcune cose le sapevo già in maniera innata, altre invece devo arrendermi a impararle.
Non mi stancherò mai abbastanza, perché il tempo che dedico a lei é prezioso ed é impagabile per quello che lei riesce a dare a me. ☘️🎀 #mybabyO#moms#mumlife#momshood#siamomamme#mammeitaliane#unusualmom#mammeblogger#mammeonline#mammesocial#themothershood#thebeautyofmotherhood#momsofinstagram#mammaaiutamamma#mammagazine#unusualmomblog#mumblog#mumbloggers#mumwithacamera#mums#inspire#inspiremyinstagram#happy
Spring is just over a week away, I’m hanging out for the warmer months... getting out of the house without having to wrestle kids in to jackets, all the windows and doors open, paddling pools out, umbrellas up, the smell of sunblock and greasy little kids, afternoon swims at the beach, dinners outside, and seeing chubby little baby legs and arms out of layers of clothing, come on sunshine! 🌼🌻🌿🍃☀️
January 28th 2012
I watched you take your last breathe.
You were no longer earth side and I had to learn to live without you.
The first time I’ve shared a picture of you for a while because it’s just been too hard to see your face. You see I’ve been really struggling without you.
The guilt of being so sad has become too much recently.
I wish my cheek was pressed against yours, I wish I could feel your warmth and snuggle on the sofa like we always did.
I wish I could hear your voice. I miss your voice and I’m so scared that I’m going to forget it.
As hard as I wish. These wishes will never come true.
I still carry grief with me. I still need you. Mama, I still need you, more than ever before.
You see death changes you and I will never be rid of the pain of watching cancer take you away from me.
I can be rude because some days I just can’t get the right words out.
Or I’m just so unbelievably sad that you’re not here.
I replay images in my head over and over...So I shut down or I get angry and I shut people off.
My chronic and crippling anxiety will never leave me but I’m learning to live with it by my side. As does the grief.
I truly believe you sent Blair and George to help me heal. Help me love again.
George will always know who you are and I hope wherever you are you’re watching down on us growing together.
I can only wish that I’ll be half the woman and mother you were.
You were just too beautiful for this earth. ‘Call your mother. Tell her you love her. Remember, you're the only person who knows what her heart sounds like from the inside.’
So yesterday I encountered an incident at work that's been really grinding away at me. I answered the phone to a very forthright customer who was enquiring to the whereabouts of a delivery he was waiting on. As with all our customers, I was polite and professional, and I began the process of assisting him. I asked the man for more details so I could look up the information he required. I was met with further blunt words which quickly progressed into hostility. He began using words like "girl", when referring to me. Obviously to belittle me. He also called me "stupid". He demanded to speak to my superior. To placate any further hostility, I transferred the phone to my husband. See, Patrick owns 50% of the business. One guess who owns the other? (I'll give you a hint..she's a stupid girl) He spoke briefly with the man, who's demeanor changed faster then you could say misogyny. The customer was nothing but courteous and responsive to Patrick, and the matter was resolved in record time. It's not the first time this kind of thing has happened. I've grown used it over the years of working in a male dominated industry. But this time I just kept thinking, why? I gave him all the same information. I delivered it to him word for word. But it was met with nothing but belligerence borderlining on bigotry. How is it, in 2019, this is still considered ok or acceptable? Now I'm a mum to a boy, I want to raise him better then this. I want him to know he can empower women, be their equal, their ally, their partner and their friend. Now I'm a mum, I'm far more conscience of this. Our words. Our actions. Our kids see it all and they are our mirror image. So from this stupid girl to you, I will simply say, let's just be better humans for our kids. .
Have you ever experienced sexism in the work place?
Because every new mum needs a time out 🌈
It was recently my 30th birthday and with a 2 month old any party plans were out the window! As a surprise my bestie planned a spa day (she even scheduled Dad in for baby sitting duties). A day of relaxing with a glass of red wine was just what I needed.
I’ve found it difficult leaving my lil bubba, especially because I have to make sure that I leave enough milk for him! But sometimes just a lil bit of me time, whether that be a spa day or a 30 min run around the block, well it leaves you feeling refreshed and like you can do another night of hourly wake ups all over again 💙
So yesterday we took the first step of the milk ladder. I’m a little nervous about it but so far all seems well, fingers crossed we’ll be able to complete each step. We’ve got this little man💪🏻💙
Sharing a joke with my boy. Who knew three years olds were just so funny! I love how their little minds view the world. Sure there are tears and, oh wow there are still are some big tantrums that would try the patience of a saint (and I’m most definitely not a saint), but it’s all worth it for the little gems they come out with. For example, the only reason I’m trying to shed a few pounds at the moment is because my son told me I have a big bum because it wobbles! Thanks darling!! What’s the funniest thing your little one has said to you? #thethingstheysay#toddlerwisdom#nowonadiet#littleloves#meandmine#myboy#mumblog
We were very kindly #gifted these awesome products from @hipporganicuk to try out! I'm so excited to be working with them, they're a really great brand and their products are so gentle on little skin 💖
Look out for an IGTV video next week with a review on the products we've been sent 🖤
Thanks again @hipporganicuk
Go and give them a follow! 🖤
The best way to predict your future is to go out there and create it. .
Stop living by other people rules. .
Stop putting up with average. .
Deep down you know your worth more, you know you deserve more and you know you are capable of more. .
What are you waiting for? The time is now! #livefree