Evening all! Sorry about the delay for your #talkaboutittuesday! We have been dealing with internet troubles, but managed to get it up and running just in time to introduce the pop punk princess - Sav. Sav is a close friend of mine who I have been present in some of her moments of uncertainty. Over the past year she has really grown into her own, and learnt how to understand and manage her emotions and unhealthy habits and it really shows through what she has written. You rock Sav - Please show her some love! 💜 “It got to the point where I had bottled it up for so long; I only addressed my suicidal thoughts and self-harm with the people around me during drunken breakdowns where I had to get so stupidly intoxicated to even talk about it. This was when I finally realised I had a problem and it needed to be dealt with. My third and final year of university was where I struggled to come to terms with this the most and I had many points where I worried I wasn’t going to make it to graduation, in more ways than one. However now that I had finally admitted to myself and those around me that I needed help, I was able to start making those steps.
I was able to speak to my family about what I had been experiencing. I booked my first appointment and I started on antidepressants. I got mitigation for my university work and graduated with a grade I am proud I could achieve. I’m now a year out of university and I have a much better relationship with alcohol and I try my best to focus on self-care, cutting down on self-harm massively. Whilst I still struggle with anxiety and depression, the steps I have taken this past year have made a massive impact on the way that I live my life, treat myself and now envision the future. Since starting medication and regular check ins with doctors, I really feel the positive change in myself. Even those around me have also noticed and I will continue to stay strong, not only for myself but those around me.” Link in bio for Sav’s full story.
Shijimi butterfly 🦋 gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous!! Blissful lavender and chamomile scent to wrap you up in its cocoon to help you rebalance and relax 😌💕 and it feels SO SOFT!! I paired it with blue skies and fluffy clouds bubble bar and the scents mixed together really well to give me an amazing blue end water. This is definitely high on my list now!! 😍 💭 I’m sorry I’ve been AWOL. I graduated last week and I’m not taking it well at all, I hate big moments of change and on top of that I’ve been pretty horrible the past week lashing out and being generally really bitter. I’m exasperated exhausted and generally empty. But with a little self care and some time to process hopefully I will get back on track soon. Love you all lushies 💕 - C x
A screen grab from my latest #short film ‘Unmasking’ - A film I wrote & directed with the goal of having a large audience relating to the content, and to feel like they can open up to others when they are struggling. ❤️🙏🏻🎞💪🏻🙌🏼✔️
Happy Birthday Tony, you lived a hell of a life and left behind a hell of a legacy. You told the tales of every line cooks grind and brought it the world as common knowledge, you rose from the ashes to become internationally known and you again brought the knowledge of every nook and cranny of the world to us all. Unfortunately no one could see exactly how bad you were eating yourself away from the inside out... If any of you have depression issues, please seek help. Talk to someone professionally or even just start with a friend. Not all drunk or fucked up, but a sober, clear minded conversation. Open some doors to hopefully get back on the right track. No one is born with depression. And if you're really bad off and thinking of suicide, look into the numerous outlets to call, text, go to online, or see in person. Suicide is never the answer. #longlivetony#bourdainday#truecooks#suicideprevention#depression
Excellent quote illustrating the importance of your own sense of self (awareness, worth, value, love) and how this affects the people you choose to accept in your life. 💖
Thanks for sharing this with me @ayeshapino
Counting the days away until my hospital appointment
This week has already been too long and were only on Tuesday .
Last week I spoke to my doctor for him to up my meds without even seeing me
Quick phone call ,prescription was ready to be picked up within minutes.
I felt like a nobody
I doubt he looked at my notes to see how addicted i became to prescription medication in the past .
Each day I'm now wishing away that something will be sorted
I've been here before .
With Hope ...
Because I cant
Or wont go back there again
I was too close to not being here .
All that hard work can be wiped out in a instant unless ...I keep hoping ...
So this time with my mind stronger ...although very foggy ... And I say that because today it is ok.
Tomorrow's maybe differant .
One day at a time is all I can deal with ...
We have to keep fighting and looking forward
I dont want to wish days or weeks away because I'm in pain.
I want to embrace each and every day because it's going to worth living for ... M
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