Extraordinary Acts Of Defence
The day I realised love was lost in my family, a cload had choked the sun ever so slowly.. untill itself it fell to the earth and created void..void of questionable doubt that love ever first existed within a realm of pure golden breath, for us to even feel belief..
Thirty two years and eight months for completion of extraordinary acts of defence built by a single act of love..
Possible.. Yes I sit on the edge of that void looking within its world after it decided spitting out the sun was a better deal than holding hope... Whispering_reign
// I found my hiding place I found lies like lace//
I snatched words from the world around to tell you how it is,
I wandered everywhere to search the perfect silence if it could describe it to you the place I’m in,
I tried hard
To tell you how I feel?
You kept asking
And I kept seeking
For words at first
Then for simplicity
Then for sanity
Then for silence
And then for lies
And lies I settled with
Coz they were so easy
They didn’t require a try.
I was screaming at the top of my lungs when you heard nothing,
I was trying to keep my eyes shut when you saw me laughing.
I was drowning when I learnt to live under the water.
I was numb when you saw me crying.
But in a puzzle that you think of me as
You never could solve for an answer only I have.
Your words hurt too
Too many times to be true
But I shut my ears close
And covered my eyes
I didn’t want to hear the silence shouting the worthlessness cries
And I didn’t want to see the perfect world my head tried to show me
The perfect world without me.
Talk about it, get over it,
They told me
Was it easy? Do you want me to help? Do you want to talk?
And I wonder even if they did
I would never answer
I would never admit.
The problem is my head
I knoww trust me I do
But the solution is my head too
You won’t know
I won’t say
I can’t make you or anybody understand
The world inside my head is a mess.
I know it shows on my face now
And it makes this worse somehow
Right infront of everyone
Broken to pieces and taped back again and again
But that’s not even an issue
Coz what really is broken to shreds is my freaking head.
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