“Bashful” is part of a series inspired by @mcflyy . He was the very reason the idea of my art page took hold. Y’all should truly check out his art because he’s been a beautiful influence on mine🔥👊🏾. Plan on releasing more soon!
So today I felt a lot of synchronicity going on. It always gives me a lot of strength and makes me feel super happy.
While I was working today with this disabled boy, it happened. We would pay a visit to my parents house. And he really wanted to get some fresh appel pie from the grocery store. We ate this pie at my parents house before and he loved it very much! So we went to the store. And we couldn't find this pie. I asked the staff for help. This friendly woman disappeared to the back. And she came back with exaclty the pie we wanted! She said that she was going to put it in the oven for us. And we would have to wait for 12 minutes! Yes! We were so happy to have found and get this freshly baked apple pie.
We did some other groceries. Then we waited the last couple of minutes near the oven. We could see the countdown. The disabled boy has a problem with 'waiting'. He doesn't understand the concept of time and quickly gets impatient. I always try my best to make a party of this 'waiting' moment. And it worked.
So when the countdown finished, we were super happy! 🤗 We went to the cash deck to pay. The exact amount was 12,24! Ha! Funny! 12 minutes waiting. 12 x 2 = 24. En 24 × 2 = 48. That's the number of my parents house! That's the place where we gonna share this magical pie! That's just a crazy connection right??
And I know some people would say, yeah there will always be something to find. Just like a horoscope is always right to everyone. But NO NO NO! Believe whatever you want. I believe in this kind of universal magic. All is connected somehow. When you are open to this you can see the synchronicity everywhere around you. It reveals the mystery of life. I could pass the excitement & energy that I've felt, on to the boy and my parents. The afternoon turned out great for all of us. We danced out of joy in the living room. Even the dog participated 😂🐶 Thank you universe for your magical whispers 🌟🤗🌟
Made this awhile ago. It's more poetic than being like "yo I have BPD symptoms." it's much nicer to think of neurotypes like different climates.
also I'm no longer sure how to feel about clinical diagnoses... they're helpful for getting medical services and it can be validating for someone to authorize you to feel the way you do.
but in the end they're just different modes of anguish, different chronic struggles named and labelled by a patriarchal medical system that loves to pathologize natural reactions to trauma, oppression and deprivation, and make you think "I'm broken," y'know?
Point is, your pain is valid but you don't necessarily need "fixing." The world was just designed for an ideal Subject & the system has probably failed you.
Being mentally ill in an individualistic system that serves capital means CONSTANT wrestling with the identity of victim so you retain access to services, while also striving to find your power. It means continually realizing you're both more fucked and more okay than you thought. Illness limits you, yes, but mostly because almost NOTHING in this society is designed to accommodate sick bodies, disabled bodies, sick minds. Even though sickness is a natural part of life!
We're trying though. Be extra kind to your disabled friends.
Anyways, pretty colors.