I look all nice and fresh here. .
Reality - I have literally just woken up from falling asleep AGAIN!
I keep falling asleep everywhere. On the bus. On the sofa. On the floor. In bed. Face down. Anywhere! I can’t seem to kick this fatigue anyone wanna join me in that?! Beautiful day in the U.K. today all what do I do go out in it for less than an hour complain it’s too bright and hot and come back home to look at it from inside and then fall asleep on the sofa 😂😂
All complaining aside the sunshine looks and makes everything look pretty, it’s lovely to have this weather 😊😊 just most of our bodies DESPISE us and DESPISE it. Dam you. I see my GP next Thursday. Going to mention my crazy thoughts, the depression as well as waking up in the morning and my hips legs and ankles major hurt. This is very new to me. I can’t kick my body being tired and falling asleep and I’m still having funny turns. You know I feel and think I’ve put on a shit ton of weight and I haven’t. I’m back to the weight I was after surgery. So silly paranoid mind my body has told you STOP LYING TO ME. But as you know mind and body never agree on anything right?! 😂😂 Joking aside I’m wondering what could cause this pain in my lower body, why my abdomen isn’t getting better, why I’m still having the weird shakes and faintlike feeling and why I’m sooooooo tired.
Also my bag decided to fill up while I was out. I couldn’t hide it and not toilet nearby so I had a massive ostomy bump!
Happy Friday everyone!!! I hope you’re all having a good day. Today I’m grateful that things aren’t super stressful. Yesterday was rough and stressful and depressing so I’m definitely grateful that today is more relaxed. Yes, my parents have been bickering off and on but definitely not anything serious. Lord, I’m praying the rest of the day continues to be fairly relaxed. I need it. It’s better for all of us and my 16 animals. The only thing that’s bothering me today is just my general anxiety still. Pretty much every day I just work myself up over how fast time is going and how I’m going to feel each day and how what I eat is going to affect me. Those pointless anxieties are what makes my heart constantly race and my mind race and get sidetracked. It’s quite bothersome and I really don’t know how to fix it. Sadly I can’t afford a therapist to talk to and vent about my worries and general anxiety. That’s why I’m highly considering starting a blog. To vent about my anxieties. And if I do it publicly then maybe it’ll be nice to get feedback and support and tips from others. I would love advice and people to talk to. A blog could be like a diary, a journal. Every day I tell myself, “you are beautiful. Take care of yourself. Help yourself try to get stronger. And just do the best you can.” That’s what I’m doing today. As I’m writing this and venting I can actually feel my heart slowing down. Ah, what a relief. Today I will definitely consider a blog. And try to keep myself relaxed. I pray you all have a good and relaxing day!!! #friday#happyfriday#loveyourself#God#praying#youarebeautiful#dontgiveup#blog#tumblr#dontworry#warrior#mentalhealth#mentalillness#anxiety#depression#stress#illness#chronicillness#invisibleillness#ibs#ibd#crohns#gastritis#gastroparesis#spoonie#calm#relax#strength#staystrong 😊😄💪🏻🙏🏻💖
Can’t remember where I saw this but it made me chuckle.
I shared this with my email subscribers today, thought I’d share it here too:
suggestions for a Happy Easter.
1. Plan a lie-in at least one day this weekend (if possible). Don’t assume, because you got up once with the kids your other half will automatically take that role tomorrow. Ask for what you want.
2. Eat chocolate and enjoy it. Don't waste time with the 'I really shouldn'ts', or thinking about how much exercise you will do to make up for it. Just enjoy it. You are allowed. Eating or not eating chocolate does not make you a better or worse person.
3. Go outside. Being outside is good for you in just about every way. It brings you to the present moment, connects you to nature. If necessary slip out for a walk alone - even just around the block - long weekends with those you love can be a little trying without a few minutes of personal space fitted in.
4. Look for beauty. It isn't hard to find beauty but it doesn't come knocking on your door - you have to open your eyes to it. For me beauty is the gateway to gratitude...
5. Be grateful. When I was at my very worst - most anxious, and things at home incredibly stressful- inspired by Ann Voskamp I collected things I was grateful for. Sometimes when the mist of anxiety was descending I would get the kids to do it with me. On a car journey we named things we were thankful for: sweets, a conversation we had had, a joke someone told, our health and home - there was always something we could find to be grateful for. It helped distract me and gave me a slither of perspective.
6. Turn off your work email and screen your calls. Leave your phone at home. Most things will wait.
7. Let yourself off the hook. let the kids watch another movie or have extra screen time. It is okay. You can't be bothered to make a big roast for Easter Sunday - get take out. It is okay. Sneak off to have a bath and leave someone else with the washing up. It is okay.
8. Lower your expectations. This isn't about expecting the worst, it is just a gentle reminder that we are human and things don't always go according to plan. Have grace for yourself and everyone else.
Bipolar can be a great thief. It can steal our joy, our relationships, our careers, our family, our sanity, and worst of all our peace.
But it doesn’t have to.
If you feel that bipolar has stolen from you, begin to take it all back. It can be done. Stay on top of your bipolar, take time for doctor and therapy appointments, never give up finding your healthy life. Every day is an opportunity to rebuild our lives into something bigger and better than we ever could have imagined.
You have bipolar, bipolar does not have you.
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Je l'imagine encore, dans un champ de pissenlits cette fois-ci. Ce ne sont pas ses fleurs préférées, mais elle a toujours choisi la simplicité. Un champ classique, comme il y en a des milliers. Elle se tient là, droite, sur ses petites bottines. Elle n'a pas changé de tenue. Elle a encore son casque sur les oreilles, sauf que cette fois j'entends ce qu'elle écoute.
Un morceau de piano.
Sous les rayons du soleil, le vent qui souffle toujours dans ses cheveux, quelqu'un pianote les touches de l'instrument. Instrument invisible à mes yeux apparemment. Pourtant je l'entends nettement cette mélodie, comme si elle faisait partie du vent et qu'elle venait chatouiller mes oreilles dans un dernier souffle. Je me demande si elle entend la même chose aussi.
Encore de dos, je ne peux toujours pas voir son visage. Debout, seuls ses cheveux se soulèvent dans les airs. Ses habits, eux, restent collés contre elle. Mais à quoi elle peut bien réfléchir en fixant ainsi l'horizon ? Ses pensées ont toujours été floues. Que ce soit pour les autres mais également pour elle-même. | #aesthetics#alone#art#expectation#end#triste#texts#tristesse#sadness#suicide#sad#depression#die#dark#darkness#darkgirl#depressed#dreams#life#vie#blue#night#bad#badgirl#girl#angels#Monster#ice#sea#picture
That’s the next thing I’ll dig deep to discover the triggers and how to get back on track.
There’s a whole lot of great thinkers and psychologists out there with answers but they lack one thing.
Practicality. I Think most people believe that they lose face / honor when they realise they need help. So instead of going to a professional they search google for answers. No one Can see your “failure” behind closed Doors in the safety of your Home. Which is why I look for practicality.
Like.. What’s the steps? What Can I do today, to make myself feel better and get back on track?
I’m by no means an expert just a normal guy willing to put time and effort into collecting knowledge.
Which hopefully leads to connecting the dots and provide with a practical system you Can do today to put you in the right path to betterment.
Nobody deserves the hell that is depression!
Another reason to keep your animals moral rational spiritual behavior
2 Peter 2 12But these, like irrational animals, creatures of instinct, born to be caught and destroyed, blaspheming about matters of which they are ignorant, will also be destroyed in their destruction,
And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird.
And there shall in no wise enter into it any thing that defileth, neither whatsoever worketh abomination, or maketh a lie: but they which are written in the Lamb's book of life.
14Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city. 15For without are dogs, and sorcerers, and whoremongers, and murderers, and idolaters, and whosoever loveth and maketh a lie.
Could be a spiritual and physical mark. Also spiritually making a decision to get a physical mark. And just the physical mark.
1 Corinthians 6:19
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
John 220Then said the Jews, Forty and six years was this temple in building, and wilt thou rear it up in three days? 21But he spake of the temple of his body.22When therefore he was risen from the dead,
Revelation 17 5And upon her forehead wasa name written, MYSTERY, BABYLON THE GREAT, THE MOTHER OF HARLOTS AND ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH.6And I saw the woman drunken with the blood of the saints, and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus: and when I saw her, I wondered with great admiration
Revelation 13 16And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads: 17And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. 18Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six.
In this intentional journey of rediscovering my joy I’ve unintentionally established deeper relationships with the people and places around me. Can’t wait for Adventure days with my little man and Whatever We Want Days with my daughter. Discovering new places and closer relationships has brought me so much joy and made me realize that all the time I was spending outside of my home volunteering and trying to give joy to others I was neglecting what my soul was craving. Those that I love the time and ability to love me back and in turn us all finding joy. I’m not fixed, and may never be, but I’ve learned that this finding joy has to be intentional. Like dates on the calendar intentional. The world awaits your joyful heart and spirit ❤️ #beintentional#mindfulness#adventure#givetimetothoseyoulove#rediscovery#joy
This is the third refill of my herbal client’s custom medicinal tea in the two months I’ve seen him. He says it’s working. 🌿💚 This custom herbal tea has almost eradicated his chronic daily diarrhea. The number of episodes per day now is usually zero. The quality of the episodes has improved - it has reduced in volume and duration. We still have work to do on eliminating the stomach and intestinal cramping.
The depression he was experiencing has lifted! It was addressed by a couple particular herbs in the tea (lemon balm and lavender), though the heavy lifting was done on a deeper level by his gut health improving (cue the subtext on the gut-brain axis!) as well as his qi or energy no longer being depleted from the chronic diarrhea.
The client had a “healing burst” (I prefer that term over “healing crisis”) upon the first cup, which revealed the herbal formula is the perfect fit for him currently and we are right on track.
He said when he drinks the tea, he feels aware of the healing taking place. ✨That’s a great sign and reflection. ✨
He feels less irritated and edgy and more relaxed.
Tailbone pain, muscle pain, and muscular locking went away during the first 2 weeks taking the tea.
His sleep is more restful. He has more vitality, which comes in handy for keeping up with his toddler, and more creativity, integral for his work as a writer. He rediscovered his passion in environmental causes and is engaging in that community again.
The herbs in this medicinal tea are from multiple herbal traditions,
🌱as are all my herbal formulas🌱, including Native American Medicine, European herbal medicine, Eclectic Medicine, Traditional Chinese Medicine, and Ayurveda.
Other supportive daily herbal and nutritional recommendations I made that the client is implementing: daily milk thistle pills and omega 3 flaxseed oil and adding more blackberries to his diet. On his own, he recently became 90% gluten free and has been feeling more positive changes in his overall health as a result.
Happy client, happy clinical herbalist!